Assalamualaikum sisters and brothers. May Allah guide you and me, always. It is just ordinary story of mine .I am not sure this story is helpful or not but I will try. :)
I was born and raised in a beautiful Muslim family. So,it means that I was wearing hijab since I was at the phase which I need to wear hijab. Do you get what I mean, sisters? Good!
Years ago, I was thinking that I only need to wear hijap when I went to school or supermarket, you know, the conditions that made me think, "oh, I need to wear hijab or it was okay not to cover my aurah, I just hang around my house. It just nothing,right?"
No, it was not perhaps! But,sometimes honestly, I was ashamed when I look my friends were fully cover their aurah and I was not. In my heart,I wish I can be like them because they looks so beautiful to me!
Soon after that, I got an nail infection. I really felt ashamed of people around me because it's stinky, it was purulent and swelling and believe me, I myself cant bear it. Sometimes, it get better but sometimes it was getting so bad. It was totally felt like "this will be the end of my life!!!" No.No yet!
After that, I wear socks just to cover my feet and letting no one know about the infections. In my head, I just think, I cant let anyone knows cause it was so shameful to have this kind of disease.
Start from that moment, I wear socks and when my feet getting better I left the sock behind.Allah.. :'( But then, when I was not wearing the sock, the infections getting worse. Hold on! What does this mean??
So, I went back, wearing the socks and I wear it until today. Alhamdulillah, the infection when away. But how about hijab? Soon, there was one thing that I realised was not fully covered! Yup it was. I was not care much about my hijab, how it was look like. It was too short and inappropriate! Then, I slowly change my hijap into more appropriate one.
As a human being, I always make mistakes. Allah hears our prayers, as Allah says, Allah tests us with poverty, illness and even wealth just to see how patient we are! He will grant our prayer just at the perfect moment! Here are beautiful and inspiring words from Quran which I want to share with everyone.
"Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not."
Al-Baqarah. (216)
It had deep meaning, right? Alhamdulillah. I am married now and Allah gave me such lovely and responsible husband who always remind me.I try to change and I am struggling to be a better person day by day too not for anyone but only for Allah's sake. Our intentions direct us to where we are going. Also, He acted in what we thought. I am not perfect that anyone shouldn't expected perfect thing from me.
Everyone has choice, and I choose to be a good Muslim. Please pray for me sisters. Allah accept those believers who repents to Him! And yes, we just live a temporary condition which is one day we will face the another world, if you know what I mean.
To sisters who are Muslim and not fully hijap, I always pray for you sisters. Wallahi I love you! :)
Jazakallah.
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